Truth was, no one knows the real me. It's funny when some thought I'm a happy kid with no problems. Behind me, I carried a thousand pain that no one could ever see. It may seem I've a good family background. I've accompanied by awesome friends. My life lights with jokes and laugh. But what makes me stronger each day, no one knows. No one.
I'd failed in many friendships. Since I was in primary sch. I thought we could remain as friend till forever but I'm totally wrong. We promised to be a true BFF. But we are now no longer that close. We used to be so close, like sisters, we shared a lots, just a lots of stuff together. Wherever we go, we always stick together. But it's funny we ended up fought over silly things. I got mad when you guys spent your time with others and not me. Maybe I used to get treated like you guys were only for me. Haha. That was funny. But that was five years back. But memories will always remain in my mind. Your name was written in my heart.
The second failure seems the hardest, it always be the four of us. We tease, we gossip, we camwhore like there's no tomorrow. But I'm not sure what had happened between us ? Jealousy ? Anger ? or Maybe we are bored to face the same face everyday ? Haha. But the scars heal faster, it's about time. But the difference is the way we treated each other, is not the same as we used to. I miss those times. Miss it so freaking much. Yes, I don't mind if you don't feel like what I felt, cuz that's your choice babe.
Best friend, Good friend, Friend ? Ahh, honestly all of 'em aren't the same. But somehow, only the true ones will stay with you. But I just wonder, there shouldn't be any secret between best friends, right ? And if you've a crush, story, gossip or whatsoever, the first person you wanna share with is your BFF right ? And if you say you're friends forever but ended up spending your time with others, what does it means ? Oh, I just wonder.
And sometimes, we just friend with each other because we want to fill our days with coolness laugh and smile. But when it comes to our bad days, surprisingly no one there to catch us up. Funny :) Sometimes, friends being niceee to us but it turns out you don't know who they are actually, the true colour of them, it'll never can be seen.
After all, my life in high school gonna end soon. So, yeah, at least after this, we are going in our own separate life, I hope all of you gonna find a new fun friends out there.
With love,
Baie.
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