Take a BREAK !

Bagi rakan-rakan seperjuanganku yang nak ambik exam MasterChef eh SPM, jom kita rileks jap tengok video ni, OH MAK DATOK I tak tipu sumpah lawak tahap dewa weh. Haha. Ni semua gara-gara Rini yang tak ada kerja pergi download video ni dan kasi gua usha tadi tup tup aku gelak tak berhenti so terasa nak berkongsi dengan yang lain-lain. Vlogger ni FaradyAble yang sangat OHSEM. haha. Wa caya sama lu bro, keep it up :D

I won't be broken again.

Setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan.
Setiap perpisahan ada permulaan.

Life is too short. If you don't take a chance to look around, you will miss it.
Everyone I met added colours to my life. Life taught me to move on. My past has been a part of mine. Though, I'm actually afraid of losing people I love, I have to accept the fact that I'm living my life where everything is real. This isn't a happy ending fairytale story. This is life.

I've to be fully prepared of what's gonna happen after this, I might be forgotten, for sure. But for this time being I believe that I should just live my life to the fullest. I'm kinda happy, indeed.

I know there's  no good in 'Goodbye' but sometimes, the best thing is to leave what we've already got to find something better.

As I grow up, I learnt that I actually don't need anybody in my life who doesn't wanna be there. But whoever that left me, the memories will never fade away. It will forever save to stay in mind.

Everyone in your life leaves at one point or another, so why bother telling someone your current life story if they're not staying for the rest ? 
At the end of the day, you gotta live your life all by yourself, alone.

I wish I could capture every moments and never let them slip away.

Never say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away. And going away means forgetting. –Peter Pan

I'm tired and sick of being tired and sick.

I didn't know that I actually fell sick because of depression and stress. This pain may relieved but the scars are always permanent.

I'm on the verge of breaking down, the strength I have to hold myself together is slowly fading away. When emotionally I'm tearing apart, physically I'm fragile. It's difficult, isn't it ? Fighting to be strong when you're dying a little inside. I couldn't barely breathe, I couldn't wake up, I couldn't open my eyes and I know I'm too weak to survive.

To realize the value of friend,lose one.

Assalamualaikum. Saranghae <--- Apahal nak jadi korean pulak ni -___-

Okay, tu dia.. Aku mai dah berblogging. Rindu kehadiran saya ? Saya tahu anda merindui kehadiran saya tatkala bulan mengambang, matahari terbit, anda mencari di mana hilangnya saya. *Kay, dah boleh stop dah, Baie -,-

NO EMO POST. Janji hihi :P

Sekejap, so tiba-tiba nak ganti Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah atau nak jadi ala-ala segmen Manisnyaa Kurma itu haha so renung-renungkanlah dan selamat beramal dengan post gua saya, harap ente mendapat manfaat daripada post ana kali ini. Peace.

Langkah-langkah untuk membaik pulih perasaaan apabila rasa sedih/depressed/marah/sakit hati/merana dan sewaktu dengannya :

- Menangis ( Menangislah kamu seolah-olah kamu menyesali atas segala kekhilafan yang telah kamu lalui atau lakukan ) Sebenarnya menangis ini sama erti macam bila kita dah tak ada perkataan lain untuk men-describe-kan feelings kita pada saat itu. Bila orang tanya "Kau okay?" Just menangis je, menangis sepuas-puasnya. Ingatlah wahai kawan, walaupun menangis tu tak semestinya dapat menyelesaikan masalah tapi at least menangis dapat meringankan beban di hati. Sumpah tak tipu hihi :)

- SOLAT & WUDUK ( Kalau time kita sedih tu, kita masih belum menunaikan solat then lebih afdal kita menunaikan solat terlebih dahulu pastu kalau nak emo-emo balik boleh lew haha. Bila nak ambik wuduk tu biar hati ikhlas, bayangkan cam kita bersihkan diri kita dari segala kekotoran. Rasa segar dan bertenaga. Habis solat. luahkan segala rasa kebencian, ketidakpuashatian, kesengsaraan dan bla bla dekat Allah dengan ikhlas tahap maksima sebab percayalah, Allah Maha Mendengar. Allah dengar doa kita )

- Mandi ( Kalau rumah kaya bukak pintu ada swimming pool, boleh lah terjun terus dalam pool tu dan berenang-berenang seperti seekor dugong hahaha. Kalau rumah di tepi pantai lagi syok, berlari lah ke pantai atau rasa nak guling2 dulu sblm jump into the pantai also can, kalau air terjun feeling sikit ah sbb sejuk. Kalau ada masa pergi ah dekat Laut Merah pun boleh. Kalau time tu dekat Hotel, gunakan lah tab mandi tu golek2 dalam tu mandi dgn buih bagai, kalau duduk di kampung, takpe air perigi still cool apa. Hahahaha. K, mandi memang boleh hilangkan kemarahan, sebab bila hati dah panas apa lagi kasi simbah ah badan dengan air der. )

- Dengar Lagu. ( Lagu pun banyak genre, kalau rasa nak layan perasaan tu hah, dengar ah lagu jiwang, balada, slow rock atau lagu2 yang sentimental yang boleh mengingatkan balik nostalgia lama atau kenangan dahulu kala sbb kadang-kadang lagu ada lirik yg betul2 menceritakan apa yang sedang kita rasa tau. Kalau rasa mcm nak release tension, betul2 tengah marah tahap dewa, dengar ah lagu yg heavy mental boleh buat head-banging sikit. Haha. Kalau nak lebih sopan dan ayu dengar lah lagu irama Malaysia hihi :P eh jap, kan elok layan lagu Maher Zain, sejuk sikit hati yg berduka lara tu )

- M.A.K.A.N ( Part ni yang menarik tertarik kau memang da bomb ah FOOD :D Haha. So bila rasa sedih and sakit hati semua tu kalau nak mengamalkan konsep " Don't Worry be Happy " then apa lagi makan je, makan sepuas-puasnya, makan macam dah setahun tak makan, makan macam tengah kebuluran. Lagi best makan chocolate, pergh rasa heaven bila chocolate melts dalam mulut atau makan something yg crunchy eg : Keropok ke apaa2 ah so that bila kita gigit/kunyah tu rasa release tension sikit. Try lah mesti rasa better lepas makan )

- Menulis @ Bercerita ( Menulis bukan maksudnya buat esei pastu hantar kat cikgu suruh tanda ah .__. Haha. Tulis lah dekat diary ke atau blogging pasal apa je yg kita rasa maybe kita tak puas hati ke atau marah dengan seseorg atau sedih dgn life kita ke, writing is the best way to express our feelings. Bercerita pulak bukan suruh buat story-telling ke pergi berpidato ke berdebat tau tau haha, find someone that you can trust and tell her/him whtever you feel, so at least tht someone can help you and give some advice to you. )

- Menjerit. ( Um, rasanya cara ni tak berapa nak sesuai lah unless korg duduk dekat Gua ke atau dekat padang pasir then okay lah sbb imagine korang menjerit macam orang gila then mau tak terkejut pulak jiran tetangga satu taman kaaannn. Kang ada yang sakit jantung tak pasal2 menemui ajal pulak. So kalau nak menjerit jugak pergi lah dekat Frim ke Batu Caves ke atau cuba masuk kan muka dalam baldi yg ada air then jerit, sumpah takde org dengar )

- TIDUR ( Sleeping is the best way to escape from reality. So since we couldn't change our past. and yeah things happened. Jadi tak guna jugak kita meratapi sesuatu yg dah jadi so apa lagi, moh lah kita ke katil. Haha. Tidur lah, lupakan apa yang terjadi pastu rehat en minda, tidur. Ni lah masanya kita nak berfantasi bayangkan diri ala-ala macam sleeping beauty sikit haha. Oh, sebelum tidur baca doa tidur bagi yg beragama Islam )


Semoga tips ni membantu lah eh, tapi malangnya tips ni takkan ditanya dalam exam SPM nanti haha. Saya niat nak membantu sebagai panduan kita bersama. ewah, ayat hihi :P

I was once included in your life.

We meet up as stranger then we become friend. I just wish we don't ended up as stranger back.

Nobody knows a lot about me. They think they do but they have no idea.

I was trapped in my own world. My dilemma. I'm depressed. It comes across when I just feel like losing myself. Like there's no point of living. It comes to the time when my heart stop beating and I'm tired of breathing. It comes to the time when everything doesn't seems alright. I just give up. Give up. I don't know why. But I just feel extremely sad. When I feel like someone has stabbed me, my chest feels the pain and it hurts like hell. It hurts. I cannot even describe how painful it is but what I could say is, it hurts. So bloody painful. Please. Please....

Since I, myself don't know what's the reason why I feel like this shit. I assumed that maybe I'm just stress out. Yeah, maybe. SPM is just next month. I'm scared. :'(

Honestly speaking, there's the moment when I feel so lonely and I couldn't find someone that I trust to express all my feelings. Yeah.

---> And if it happens you read all my tweets, twitter saya :) and it seems so fucking depressing, pardon me. I just tweet randomly. But unfortunately, it always ended up with broken feelings. Oh my life (-_-t) Sometimes, if you tend to get offended with my tweets than yeah maybe my intention is to make you realized of what you did, dear. Well, we all humans. We make mistake. Because that's the only way I can express my feelings (!)

Thanks for the memories.

As life goes on, time flies.

We are growing up.

I would like to define the meaning of growing up is equal to growing apart with your loved ones. As simple as that.

Everyday is a new chapter of life.

We're breathing.

We're living.

 Each chapter has it's own title.

We used to be so close, we USED. But then something went wrong which I had no idea what it is. We moved on. We are now mature enough to face each other. Oh, well, I don't blame you for what had happened between us. There's no one should take the blame. I guess we're too ego at that moment. yes, too ego. Now, I don't really bother about my past, in fact if people are leaving me now, I don't care, seriously. I believe that people just need some change in their life. Right ?

Back to my point, I just wanted to say that deep inside my heart, I miss us. Yes, us. Don't you ? Somehow, it touched my broken heart. The scars heals, at least. The fact that I, myself don't know whether it sincerely comes from your heart or you just did it purposely, I don't know but hell yeah, whatever, your action seriously made me miss us even more. Thanks. Thank you. Perhaps now you and I may be in the same book, but we’re on completely different pages. We couldn't reunite back, we just couldn't. You have your own life, new friends and it same goes to me. You had replaced me with someone else, someone that I knew is better than me, someone that is not nerdy boring like me, someone that will always be there for you, friend. I thanked that someone for being such a good friend for you, I pray to Allah that you'll find your true happiness :)

Oh well, I don't feel regret that we are apart, I don't blame our fate because I believe that everything happens for a reason. I feel thankful that for once in my life, you made me happy with those sweet, weird, bad memories and added colours into my life even it's just for awhile. Thanks :D

Good Luck in SPM.

If it happens you need any help, I am here for you.

P/S : I'm typing this without any sad and gloomy feelings. I'm happy. I ain't emotional at all. I dedicated this not to only one person but to a few friends of mine. We are still friend, right ? :)

" Terima kasih sebab nak tolong aku, niat ikhlas itu sudah cukup buat aku menghargainya "